Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Dear Pain,

You.

Are.

Not.

The. 

Boss.

Of.

Me.

Yeah.   I know you're here.

You make your presence abundantly known...like a pebble in my shoe.
 
Muhammad Ali said, "It isn't the mountains ahead that wear you out...it's the pebble in your shoe."
 
I think he was probably right.  Pebbles are totally exhausting.
 
 
 
And that Ali guy is pretty smart for a basketball player. 
 
Or is that a football player?
 
Ummm.
 
Hockey?
 
Yeah.   I am always on top of the whole reference to sports thing.
 
NOT.
 
Blush! 
 
But chronic pain just wears you out.
 
And wears you down.
 
Maybe I need to spend less time trying to shake the damn pebble out of my shoe and more time remembering...
 
That perhaps the pebble in my shoe is heart shaped.

 
 
Or maybe a rare emerald.
 
Or a diamond.
 
I just need to remember that perhaps all this medical testing will help the pebble in my shoe.
 
Maybe it will make it gone.
 
Maybe it will just make it littler.
 
Or maybe I will need to invest in some special 'pebble in your shoe foot pad' to get by.
 
I just can't be afraid.
 
And I just have to keep reminding the pain...
 
YOU.
 
ARE.
 
NOT.
 
THE.
 
BOSS.
 
OF.
 
ME.

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26 comments:

Rocky Mountain Woman said...

aahhhh..sweetie - sending hugs...

Linda @ A La Carte said...

Dear Jenny, I am so sorry to hear you are still going through this. Sending you hugs and prayers.

Linda

Jim said...

Oh, Jenny, I am sorry too for your really bad and constant hurting. You have my prayers and best wishes for a much, much better day coming.
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Annesphamily said...

Darn pebble in your shoe! I am so sad because you are going thru this. You are such an amazing lady and deserve to feel good! Don't give in to it just be the boss of it! You are a beautiful person and I don't like that you are in pain! Hugs, gently from Colorado to Arizona and you! xoxo

EG CameraGirl said...

I like your positive attitude and not letting the pain be the boss of you, JennY! I'm sending good thughts your way.

Sandra Black said...

Yes Jenny it is not the boss of you. Praying for you

Debbie at Travel with Intent said...

My strongest possible pain-beating good wishes are flowing your way. wishing you relief soon Jenny

Sarah Beth said...

Sending good thoughts that the pebble will become only a grain of sand.... positive thinking!

Janie Junebug said...

I want to beat up the pain. I continue to pray for you. When I mention anything about sports to The Hurricane, she says, Sports metaphors are lost on me.

If they are lost on her, then can't she look for them and remove them, like lice?

Love,
Janie

Ms. A said...

I'm doing better since I started replacing the things the FQs robbed from my body. Hope you find some relief soon!

jeannettestgermain said...

Exactly! And let it not hold you back from things you want to do! If those medical persons can hurry up a bit with all of their testing, grr. Shoe 'em who's boss!

Theresa said...

Doggoneit! I sure hate it that the pain is still with you, pebble in the shoe... Love you sweet Jenny! Praying that you can shake that pebble out and feel better! I believe in the power of prayer! HUGS!

Viki said...

My goodness, I can't believe you are still in so much pain. Why can't they seem to find out what is wrong with you, sheesh!

Pat Tillett said...

I'm sorry to hear that you are still having this pain. Believe me, I know what you are feeling and talking about.

Your words were so appropriate to what is going on with you. I bet you that several magazines would publish this post if you submitted it.

Rita said...

Oh Jenny! Chronic pain is makes a really lousy companion. Or maybe I should say stalker. Or a nasty siamese twin. I hope you find an answer and they can relieve your pain. I really, really do, dear one. Hang in there. :)

Gattina said...

You are very brave not to let you down ! Living with pain all the time is just terrible. Why is so much money spent to discover a new planet while on ours they are not even able to heal diseases ??? That makes me always very angry !
Keep on going !!

Maureen Wyatt said...

I'm sorry you are suffering and hope it will soon pass.
ps - He was a boxer.

wolfsongc said...

Thinking of you, Ms Jenny...sending lots of love and healing energies your way. And a gentle hug too.

Margaret (Peggy or Peg too) said...

I am so very sorry Jenny that you are going through all this. Have they no idea yet why? Can you at least work with a pain management expert for relief?

It's tiring being brave and in pain.
You are so wonderful. Please know i think of you often. Prays and hugs coming your way my friend.

Su-sieee! Mac said...

You go, Jenny! You totally are the boss!

Nellie's Cozy place said...

Hi Jenny,
Been awhile since I have been by and so very sorry to hear you are still having so much pain, and still no answers.
Will be praying for you sweetie, I had
3 weeks of constant pain with a pinched nerve about 12 yrs. ago, and I couldn't
even think to pray.....accept for help.
So I can only imagine how horrible to have it going on so long.
Know you are on my heart and in my
prayers hon,
Blessings, Nellie

edenhills said...

I am so sorry to hear this Jenny. I was afraid your silence was not good news. Will keep you in my thoughts and send healing energy.

Laurie Ritchey said...

Jenny, I haven't been by to visit you in several years. Not sure you'll remember me, Laurie @ Battling My Inner Critic. My Inner Critic got the best of me for a few years, but I was feeling a need to write again, so the first place I came was your blog. I'm so sorry you're still having so much pain. This post touched my heart. I felt tears stinging my eyes. You've written so beautifully in spite of, or maybe because of, your pain. I will have you in my prayers. I will also be praying for your medical providers to have the wisdom to find out what is wrong and to get you better quickly. Hugs.

Cathy Kennedy said...

You're amazing! I like how you try to see the good in the midst of bad, but you're right. Being positive is what carries one through the rough patches. I can't imagine what you're dealing with, but I God does and I'm saying a prayer for you, Miss Jenny! Sending love & hugs your way!

Splendid Little Stars said...

Well said! You tell it, Jenny!
hugs.

To the Toy Box and Beyond said...

It's been awhile since I visited you. I hope the pain subsides quickly for you and you are on your way to better health. I have been dealing with vertigo and believe me it is not my friend. It's like being drunk without having to taste the alcohol. (btw this is Becky from socially awkward but that's a-ok)