"There are always two people in every picture: the photographer and the viewer."
But for many years for me, personally, there was me, the photographer...I never wanted to be the one "viewed".
Oh, I had my reasons. Too fat. Too old. Too wrinkled. Bad hair day. Lots and lots of reasons and never too many smiles in front of the camera.
If a rare photo of me made it onto the camera I would quickly erase it off...I didn't want anyone to remember me that way.
Once I had lost 50 pounds, had a face lift, got a better hair-style, etc., etc. I would certainly step willingly in front of the camera.
But that never happened. For years.
I continued to hide.
The reason I stopped hiding was my sweet husband.
We have been married almost ten years....second time was definitely the charm for me.
But one day early in our marriage I was doing my usual "DON'T TAKE A PICTURE OF ME OR I'LL KILL YOU" thing...
And he said something like "wow, for such a giving woman I can't believe you are so selfish!"
Selfish! Me! I sputtered! I raged! I protested vehemently!
And then I listened to what he had to say.
And he said that the pictures weren't for me. They were for the people that love me. And the people that love me see me with their hearts. And they don't care if I need to loose weight, or have some wrinkles, or some gray in my hair.
And I thought and thought and thought about it.
And he was right.
When I scrapbook some of the old pictures (pre-husband-number-two) there are none of me. Or very, very few.
And when my granddaughters and I look through them they say "Grandma? Where are you?"
But when they look through the scrap-book pages now there I am on every page! Smiling! Loving large! And though I will admit to still deleting off all the back views (hey, a woman's gotta have some remaining vanity, right?) I just look at whoever is taking my picture and say "Be merciful!" instead of "Cheese!"
And it's OK! The camera never breaks! No-one ever throws up after they see my picture (or at least that they admit!) and there my smiling, getting old, too fat face is for anyone who wants to remember it.
A photograph is memory in the raw. ~Carrie Latet
And that photograph isn't really, necessarily for you!