...and it's such a wonderful thing that it makes us almost speechless.
Something that comes pretty hard to me, personally.
Oh sure, I can fill up a room with chatter, until it comes to something that is really hurting my heart. Then I grow quiet. And I find it very difficult to share my pain.
Yesterday was one of the worst days I've had in my life in a long, long time. No, you don't have to say, "Ohhh...I'm sorry," because I know we all have them. But I was having a hard time getting my fingernails dug in a little deeper to hang on.
I swallowed my pride.
Picked up the phone.
And spilled my guts to a friend. All of my guts. Not the 'acceptable for company' guts. Not the 'sanitized' version of what was going on in my life. Complete, total and unedited gut spilling.
I dumped my entire life at the moment on this wonderful person.
I cried, I hyper-ventilated. I cried some more. I sobbed.
And finally, finally, finally when my eyes were swollen shut and I could hardly breathe...
I stopped crying long enough to listen.
And she gave me great advice.
And she listened with her heart and her mind. And she blessed me with no judgement.
And I am grateful I was able to swallow my pride long enough, to let someone help me.
Sure, it's easy to help everyone else. It's easy to be the givER. But sometimes it's really hard to accept help gracefully...to be the givEE.
Sometimes I think it takes a stronger person to accept help than to give it.
And yesterday I had a very hard hitting reminder that I am only alone with my sorrows and fears if I am too proud to swallow my pride and reach out.
Pretty deep, right?
And I can't find any natural way to segue into a dresser update so I'm not going to even try. Here's my ongoing progress.
I am about an hour away from being totally done...and the grand reveal will be on Friday.
I'm having a lot of fun with this project. Thanks for keeping me honest in getting finished!
Because I am working on a 5 dollar budget and I am out of glazing compound, I just mixed some acrylic paint with a lot of water and applied it with a brush. I quickly went over the damp brown paint and pulled most of it back off.
Then I used a high-gloss varnish over the tattoo area. Tomorrow I will put a second coat on and then coat all the pink areas with satin varnish. I want to see what playing with sheen will do on this piece.
And I spray painted my mis-matched drawer pulls black so they'll all match.
Thanks for stopping by today.
And if you have a spare prayer, maybe you can send it my way. I'd really appreciate that.