You can spend years of your life worrying about someday.
You can image how you will feel…you can grieve…you can mourn…you can wake up at night with your face covered in tears from dreams that feel so real you feel certain they are the truth.
Your heart hurts because you are so convinced about what is sure to occur and how the pain will feel.
When you get caught up in practicing for horrible things, it’s hard to remember that it is only your imagination and fear creating the scenario and the emotion, and that imagination is not reality.
Practicing for horrible things not only doesn’t work, it robs you.
It robs you of small joys missed while you are grieving something that has not yet occurred.
It robs you of missed moments while you are hiding your face in fear for a future you are certain is predestined.
It robs you of the ability to embrace hope…and possibility…and optimism.
And then when the bad thing finally occurs that you have spent so much time imagining, you tell yourself, “Aha! I am ready! I am prepared! I know what to do because I’ve already been here a hundred or more times in my mind! I know what this is going to feel like!”
But it doesn’t always feel like that.
And you’ve spent so much time on your mantra of maybe that you have been unable to…
…see a perfect sunset because your eyes were dimmed by copious tears, or missed a special smile on the face of a loved one because your heart was turned inward to suffering you were certain was coming.
‘To everything there is a season…”
The season for now is now…right now…
Don’t let your fears and worries and practicing for horrible things, take you to the place where you have lost the ability to sing a song, feel a joy, or give a hug that starts down at the very tip of your toes.
Practicing for horrible things is the worst kind of practicing…
…for often when the horrible thing occurs you aren’t ready anyway,
You stand confused and amazed and stunned at what is going on…
…and all that practice was for naught.
‘To everything there is a season…’
Live the season of now.
Practicing for horrible things is nothing but a way to have a broken heart for a lot longer than might be necessary.
Practice kindness. Practice the piano. Practice making the world shine just a bit brighter in the place you are.
Just don’t waste any more of your time practicing for horrible things.